This week Jamie asks us:
courtesy of we heart it
I wish to make peace with my anger, sadness, and grief toward my mother. It's hard to carry around this anger for things that happened in my life. I've come to accept that I'm allowed to be upset, that I'm not marring her memory but being honest about how I perceived things and how I was hurt, but I haven't been able to forgive her yet. And it's keeping me from really saying goodbye and moving past her death and not being tied down to these crazy ideas she put in my head because she meant well or just didn't know any better. I know she loved me, but I haven't been able to get past these feelings of resentment I feel. It's not good to carry this around. I want to be able to conjure up the good memories of my mother when people ask about her, and there were plenty of good memories, but right now they get lost in this space in my gut.
I wish to finally process these emotions and move past them. The only person they're hurting is me and I think I've done enough of that already.