Wednesday, February 22, 2012

It's bound to be a better ride than what you've got planned...

It's Wednesday.  I am still battling illness of doom, but at least it's no longer bronchitis.  It's now a bad sinus infection - I'm not sure why that's better, but my doctor seemed to think it was progress.  Unfortunately the hacking cough and grossness still hasn't gone away.  And this is why, when co-workers come in all sickly in the future, I will wear a mask like I'm a commuter in Japan or something.

My note from the universe today was something I could do with remembering more often:

It may seem a bit backwards for some, Mare, but the first step on might take towards rearranging the present circumstances of their life is to stop dwelling upon the present circumstances of their life.

But for you it's probably a no-brainer.

The Universe

I wish I could say it was a no-brainer, but I do tend to get bogged down by what's going on in the minute.  I also tend to then take that and freak out about possible horrible futures.  It's a strange thing.  I'm actually a pretty optimistic gal, but when it comes to myself, my own well being and my own successes/failures, I can be a horrible pessimist.  I continue to work on that.

One of the great things about Wednesday, aside from the work week being halfway through, is that it's wishcasting Wednesday.  Today Jamie asks:

courtesy of we heart it

"Oh!  Do not attack me with your watch.  A watch is always too fast or too slow.  I cannot be dictated to by a watch." - Mansfield Park by Jane Austen

I have this nasty habit of making strange deadlines in my own head of where I should be with my life and start to get angry with myself because I'm not there.  It's not productive and usually leads to me wallowing about wondering why I'm bothering - as though thirty-six is so old and beyond accomplishing great things.  It's bizarre and negative and wrong.  I view time as my enemy and it's not.

I wish to spend my time without worry about what should be and focus on what I want and accomplishing it, without fear and hesitation and getting caught up in the too late mantra.

I wish to spend my time exploring myself and the world through those eyes, embracing creativity and spirituality and all those other great -ity words.

I wish to laugh and cry and face my fears with courage.

I wish to remember that each second counts and it's no use to me to spend those precious moments caught up in games of "what if" and "i suck" and "bah! humbug!"

What do you wish for?


karmacoy said...

Hey, I can relate to this wish!! I will soon be turning 44 and I am about too leap forward into some things that I have been telling my self I was too old for, for th past 10 years! As you wish for yourself, I whole-heartedly wish for you as well!!

April Cole said...

Wonderful wishing... sounds like this has been on your mind for some time. Enjoy life, without worrying about the clock turning... ((hugs))
As you wish for yourself, I wish for you as well.

Beth McLarnan said...

YES! Exactly what I was thinking too. As you wish for yourself, I wish for you also. (Sorry about your sinus infection, those are painful!).

Connie Mitan said...

Absolutely wonderful wish! And I LOVE the image you included! Time really is a construct that often serves to hurt more than help.

As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

Keepapi Creative said...

haha. so true. As you wish for yourself, I wish for you too. x

Shirley said...

What a beautiful and powerful wish. As you wish for yourself, I also wish for you.

Dia said...

Your post made me think of the time (in my early 40s!) that I spent living at Breitenbush Hot Springs - a worker owned retreat & conference center.We were ~ 14 minutes off the 45th parallel, & the running joke was that's why folks tended to be ~ 14 minutes late!
All our 'commuting' was on foot throughout the property, & I did need to be 'on time' to give massages or teach my weekly Tai Chi classes ... but I didn't wear a watch, & became VERY good at knowing the 'clock time' within a few minutes - it was quite intriguing!
That has faded in the time since I lived there - but it was such a wonderful skill!
As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you!!

Sabrina S. said...

Hi Mare,
Sometimes time is a great ally. It helps heal from suffering and pain. I wish you to find more optimism. Thanks for wishing along with me yesterday.
As you wish for yourself, I wish for you too.
Greetings from France.

Cassandra said...

The passing of time gets a bit scarier the older I get, but you're need to worry! As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also :)

Cindy Jones said...

I hope you are feeling better! Enjoying life gets easier when we figure out, as you have, how self defeating our own self imposed deadlines! As you wish for yourself, I wish for you also!

Jill said...

Oh, how I know this "too late/I've wasted too much time" thought loop. And what's so dumb about it is you can't be where you are, know what you know without having lived every single second that came before. We think there are magic short cuts or that we are being too slow and that means something is wrong with us, and that just isn't true. Being where we are, who we are is really where the joy lives, where our power is. As you wish for yourself, I wish for you also.

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