Wednesday, July 20, 2011

And all I can do is try...

Happy Wishcasting Wednesday!  If you're not familiar with wishcasting, it's "...a safe haven for wishes, a fertile field in which to plant wish seeds and have them witnessed and tended lovingly. It’s a place where magic begins."  It's something I look forward to every week. It usually fits right in with what is going on in my universe and my fellow wishcasters are wonderful.

This week Jamie asks:


courtesy of we heart it

"I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me"
 - Nelly Furtado's Try

I wish to try stopping the negative voices that rule my brain. It's so bad that I don't even catch myself when I'm doing it.  I've gotten better with at least noticing these moments - I can logically say, "Bah, that's not right" - but I'm not very good at the follow through and forcing myself to accept that logic as correct.  I want to try to see myself correctly - the good and the bad, not just the bad - and come up with solutions that don't involve me berating myself for an hour on why, why, why or self-sabotaging the steps I've already taken to improve. 

I wish to try and not give up, not be swayed when I hit an obstacle, as it will surely come.  My inner gremlin is a force to be reckoned with - I just need to realize that I am too.

11 comments:

FitMish said...

Somehow it's comforting and frustrating at the same time, to realize that so many of us tend to be harsh on ourselves.
As you wish for yourself, I wish for you as well!

Mouse said...

A lovely open and heartfelt wish Mare ...... obstacles can often stop our "progress" and leave us wondering how we're going to get through them ..... yet really they're opportunities to explore new ways of being, doing and achieving. And those negative voices? I'm not sure they ever really go away since we are usually conditioned to them so young.

As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you too.

I also wish you congratulations, because it takes a lot just to be able to recognise these things .... most people don't :)

Julie Jordan Scott said...

Yes yes yes for trying and not, not, not giving up. Brava for you!

As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also!!!

with oodles of love!

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

You are not alone, we will be cheering for you. Cheering so loud that you can´t hear the gremlin´s voice. :D
As Mare wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Beverley Baird said...

A very strong wish! It is so hard to face up to those inner critical voices! May your wishes be fulfilled!
As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

Vanessa said...

As you wish for yourself I wish for you as well...

Camilla said...

My critical inner voices often shout at me. I can relate to how you feel about your "gremlin." Hang in there, and keep trying ;) You are not alone.

As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

Lucy Ladham-Dyment said...

Very good wish. As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

Sam said...

Inner critic is a toughy - and don't give up trying - try, try again...and again! As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you!

collectingyourself said...

You have great imagery to describe the negative voice...inner gremlin. I wonder how you would give image and characterization to what is opposite the gremlin. As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you as well.

Ginny said...

We all have that inner gremlin. You have made a very important first step. You recognize that it is there and are trying to combat it. I think that is awesome. As you wish for yourself, I wish for you as well.