So, I finished with Chapter One on Sunday and began Chapter two. It was a hard start for me in some areas - I kept procrastinating and putting things off. Even though I started with the group on July 3rd, aside from morning pages, the first week, I really didn't do much except read the intro and first chapter.
1) Have you been doing your pages?
I've done my morning pages every day. Though, as I've mentioned before, some days they're called "Not Quite Morning Pages" if I'm running late in the morning before work. rather than blowing them off completely or referring to myself as an abject failure, I've decided that if I miss them in the morning, while not ideal, it's still better to do the pages when I have a moment of time (usually my lunch break). It has definitely been, as Julia Cameron mentions in the book, mostly a negative dumping ground for me at times. Or thinking about all that I have to do. Or recalling dreams. No profound writing has come out of it yet, but I'm doing it.
2) Have you been on an artist date? Share! Pics are cool, so we can see the world through your eyes.
I did not have any artist dates during the last two weeks. I've been trying to figure it out and put aside the time for myself, but I'd get sidetracked with plans and life and excuses to avoid it. It is on my calendar for this Saturday morning and I think I'm just going to do something simple like pick up a coloring book and doodle/color. Since money is currently tight, I'm trying to think of simple things that are free. At some point I might go over to Philly and visit the museum...and once it cools down a bit, I'll take a walk or two...but for now, I'm trying to work out some ideas for time alone where I can have fun and play. I admit it still feels weird. How sad is it that this will probably be one of the hardest parts for me?
3) Have you written a task? Yay for you! More than one?
I worked on the pick a job you'd like to have list, however, I didn't do any of the things based around if I had another job. I wrote out about my three biggest critics on the creative journey and it was interesting and sad and I found myself crying when I wrote it. I began to do the one about cheerleaders, but I stopped myself. Just further proof that I tend to focus on the negative rather than the positive.
I've also been doing the daily affirmations, which aside from the Artist's Date, is probably the hardest part for me. I have been writing down the evil Censor voice with it. But every time I write, "I, Marianne, am a talented person," I still wince and think, "Not really. You suck." Stupid censor.
I will continue working daily affirmations into my morning pages, keep my Artist's Dates, and stop procrastinating on reading/completing tasks.