Wednesday, September 14, 2011

guide me on this journey

Happy Wednesday, everyone!  I have survived a busy time at work and our event today went off (mostly) without a hitch.  I am relieved and glad it's over...and I've already started planning next year.  With this off my plate and 9/11 over, I want to focus on getting back to my writing and reading and wishing.  Speaking of, today it's Wishcasting Wednesday!

Today Jamie asks:


courtesy of we heart it

"I am open to the guidance of synchronicity, and do not let expectations hinder my path." - Dalai Lama

I guess it's fitting that this question arises in the aftermath of Sunday and the memorial and that ten years have passed since Tommy died.  It's funny, in a totally unfunny way, how no matter how much time passes by, in some ways it was just yesterday.  He was laughing and telling really bad, inappropriate jokes with an aww-shucks grin.  I can still almost see it in my head only to have everything come rushing back.  I catch myself looking at the calendar and thinking, "My God, has it really been ten years?  How?" 

Anyway, without going down a long road of maudlin thought that serves no purpose, being there and being overwhelmed with the passing of so much life, it reminded me how precious life is.  Yeah, it's a platitude, but it's one for a reason.  As far as we know, there is only one shot at this thing calling living, and we should be happy and fulfilled and hopefully, if we're lucky, when we're old and wise, we'll be ready (as much as anyone can) for our final curtain call.

Right now, I wish for guidance on making my wishes into reality.  I want to move myself from simply acknowledging and thinking about what I need to do and actually doing it.  Currently, I'm not happy with my career, my finances, or my health.  Two out of three of these things are definitely in my control to an extent, but I keep repeating "someday" when it comes to dealing with it.  Really, Mare?  You better than most people know that there might not be a someday.

Also, I want to find others on the same path to share stories and support and encouragement with as we grow.  I'm finally starting to realize that being closed off and hiding away doesn't work.  I can't do it all on my own...or I can, but it's much better to have people around you to share the highs and lows with.

I will be reading everyone's wishcast posts tomorrow morning.  I'm wiped tonight, but didn't want to miss another week of wishcasting.  But please know, as you wish for yourself, so I truly wish for you also.



6 comments:

Camilla said...

A very thought-provoking post. This sounds like a tough time for you. Big (HUG).

As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

Jane said...

What an amazing journey ~ I'm really proud of you ~

Keep taking small steps for your highest good.

As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.
~ Jane

Cindy Jones Lantier said...

A very touching post. I, too, wish to really LIVE my LIFE while I'm here, because I don't know what's on the other side. Sure, I have my beliefs, but no one knows for sure. Good luck to you in finding your way down your path. As Mare wishes for herself, so do I lovingly wish for her also!

Kate's Healthy Home said...

As you wish for your self, so I wish for you also.

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

{Biggest hug ever, darling} You have been doing so much these weeks, things are getting clearer. Small steps now, start going, keep going. We´ll cheer for you along the way.
As Mare wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

" M " said...

You can do everything you dream to do! All the feeling of thinking you can't for one reason or another is all part of the creative world. So go for it ! And guess what , the like minded people you seek are right here ready to inspire you .

As you wish for yourself, I wish for you also! : )