Today Jamie asks:
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"I am open to the guidance of synchronicity, and do not let expectations hinder my path." - Dalai Lama
I guess it's fitting that this question arises in the aftermath of Sunday and the memorial and that ten years have passed since Tommy died. It's funny, in a totally unfunny way, how no matter how much time passes by, in some ways it was just yesterday. He was laughing and telling really bad, inappropriate jokes with an aww-shucks grin. I can still almost see it in my head only to have everything come rushing back. I catch myself looking at the calendar and thinking, "My God, has it really been ten years? How?"
Anyway, without going down a long road of maudlin thought that serves no purpose, being there and being overwhelmed with the passing of so much life, it reminded me how precious life is. Yeah, it's a platitude, but it's one for a reason. As far as we know, there is only one shot at this thing calling living, and we should be happy and fulfilled and hopefully, if we're lucky, when we're old and wise, we'll be ready (as much as anyone can) for our final curtain call.
Right now, I wish for guidance on making my wishes into reality. I want to move myself from simply acknowledging and thinking about what I need to do and actually doing it. Currently, I'm not happy with my career, my finances, or my health. Two out of three of these things are definitely in my control to an extent, but I keep repeating "someday" when it comes to dealing with it. Really, Mare? You better than most people know that there might not be a someday.
Also, I want to find others on the same path to share stories and support and encouragement with as we grow. I'm finally starting to realize that being closed off and hiding away doesn't work. I can't do it all on my own...or I can, but it's much better to have people around you to share the highs and lows with.
I will be reading everyone's wishcast posts tomorrow morning. I'm wiped tonight, but didn't want to miss another week of wishcasting. But please know, as you wish for yourself, so I truly wish for you also.