letting the good take over...

I just returned from therapy.  Good, if not tough session.  I always feel bad or wrong when my answer to questions is "I don't know."  I'm working on this feeling bad stuff though.  It's time to stop being so hard on myself, but for every little step forward, I end up with two back.  As we talked about today, I think a lot of it involves hope for me.  So much has happened in my life, so many bad things, that I find it hard to believe it can be good and wonderful.  I'm suspicious of it, like I'll get happy and have the ground fall out from underneath me.

The thing is...yeah, it's happened before.  It's happened and I've survived.  I always survive.  So what am I so scared of?

Much to ponder, but for now I shall ponder my wishes for Wishcasting Wednesday.

This week Jamie asks:

What do you wish to immerse yourself in?

courtesy of we heart it

I wish to immerse myself in pursuing the things that make me happy.  I feel like that's a bit huge and open-ended, but it's kind of where I'm at.  I want to spend my time writing and working out and bettering myself because I deserve it.  I do deserve it.  Maybe if I keep saying it, the words will finally click in my head and I'll believe them - I deserve to be happy.  Best way I know to make that happen?  Do things I love.  

So here's to spending all of my free time writing and playing and dancing and enjoying life.