Wednesday, October 13, 2010

butterfly in the sky, I can fly twice as high

Today I got to spend a portion of my day at a seminar on the Health Care Reform laws going into effect.  It wasn't nearly as informative as I needed it to be, considering there are so many nuanced bits to this law that will make my day job oh so much fun.  But I can't complain because I'm one of those lefty progressives who thinks health care reform has been needed - in fact, I'm not sure this goes far enough, but it's a start, right?

But it's Wishcasting Wednesday!  And that's always a good day and a great opportunity to get in touch with the universe and myself and take a moment to breathe and think about things. 



I wish I was that girl who always knew she could fly, the type of girl who believed that she could do anything, no worries, no fears...just fly out into the sky.  Maybe it's because my dad died when I was little.  Maybe it's because my mother didn't live a life based on dreams.  Maybe it's because I'm a Virgo and part of who we are is practical to a fault.  Maybe it's just a mixture of it all, which is most likely.  But even as a kid, I was there saying, "I want this.  I love to do this, but..."

I want to be free of the words "but" and "can't."  As a writer, it's a strange thing to say that I want to be liberated from words.  Unfortunately, I put too much emphasis on them in regards to my life and, in the context of my world, they are excuse words.  It's not that I can't make time to write - it's that I won't.  It's not that I would like to do this, but...it's me looking for a way out, to put things on some unknown.  I've lived too long on excuses and it hasn't made me very happy. 

My wish is to fly free of the words I use to hold myself back, whether said by me or others. 

5 comments:

Kim Mailhot said...

As Mare wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

We could all use a little less "but" and "can't" - good wish !

morningstarstudio.ca said...

This is awesome and I love the picture.
As you wish for yourself so I wish for you as
Lynna G

morningstarstudio.ca said...

This is awesome and I love the picture.
As you wish for yourself so I wish for you as
Lynna G

GlendaM said...

As Mare wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well!

Kim Switzer said...

Out with "but" and "can't" and in with flying! :)

As Mare wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.