Today was a horrific day. I'm battling the triple threat of illness - ear infection, sinus infection, and upper respiratory infection - so I missed work on Monday and have been sorta just sleeping as much as possible and on lots of meds. I realize my brain is not at full functioning levels. And, amongst other reasons, it led to an issue involving name badges of doom this afternoon at work. I corrected the issue and stayed late to get it done properly, and yet, I can't let it go. Why am I so good at harping on the things I mess up and totally incapable of allowing myself to enjoy moments of victory? I just wish I could stop myself from feeling this way. At least I'm able to notice it now, so that's a start.
Speaking of wishes, it's Wishcasting Wednesday. I know the day is almost over, but I feel so much better when I do this and share my hopes for everyone else. It's nice to positivity out into the universe. This week Jamie references She references Mary Oliver’s poem Wild Geese.
Comfort. As the seasons change and I'm battling of the icky feelings associated with sickness, I currently just want comfort. A place without anxiety and negativity where I can recharge my batteries and just be. In the end it will help me get back on track with so many things and give me time to think and journal and enjoy things that I keep finding ways to avoid. I want the comfort of a warm blanket, a cup of hot chocolate and a good book in front of the fire place while I just enjoy the small moments of life.