Your secret blessing, Mare, is that no matter where you go in time and space, you only ever have to be yourself - as courageous, vulnerable, bold, or afraid as you may feel - to find yourself amongst friends.
It was a good way to start the day and a good thing to be reminded of. And it's also wishcasting wednesday, which always provides me with a chance to explore my journey. I hated that I missed last week - evil back trouble and a root canal left me wanting nothing to do with the computer - but I've been doing better with my regular journaling again. I tend to go through peaks and valleys with my journaling these days.
This week Jamie asks:
courtesy of We Heart It
The immediate answer is my life. I wish to transform my life. And while that is a good thing, it's part of my ongoing problem with change. I don't know how to appreciate small transformations and wish to blink my eyes and POOF, everything is as I dream it to be. I overlook the hard work and emotional growth and investment necessary to make great transformations occur.
I have been off all types of soda for 42 days now. Considering how much of a soda fiend I was, this is a huge victory for me. Do I allow myself to celebrate it or do I focus on all the things that I haven't conquered in those same 42 days? I need to think about my life differently and appreciate all the changes I've made so far so that I can move forward and reach that next step.
Right now, I want to transform my health. I had done so well when I was on Weight Watchers, dropped 75lbs, and hit a wall when money got tight. It was all emotional, all self-sabotage, and I'm slowly understanding those triggers. For me now, it's about starting over, to stop waiting for the perpetual Monday to come and just do it.
I wish to make the conscious decision to eat better and move more. If I stray, I want to understand why I'm doing that - do I simply want a piece of pizza or am I getting in my own way. I wish to be all those things my note from the universe says I am - bold, courageous, vulnerable.