Taking some time to wishcast

This weather has put me in a bit of a funk.  Coupled with ongoing sinus issues and this being the month of doom & gloom in my life, well, every day feels like a battle at points.  I'm doing pretty well overall, but there are moments where it's a struggle.  Like at this very moment, my eyelids feel so very heavy and all I want is to curl up and sleep.

Instead, I will focus on something energizing and happy.  It's Wishcasting Wednesday.

Today Jamie asks us:

What hunger do you wish to feed?

courtesy of We Heart It

Hunger always elicits such an immediate negative connotation for me.  As someone who has spent the majority of her life struggling with weight and body image issues, I'm still working on realizing what an actual feeling of hunger is and what I'm hungry for.  Am I eating because my body requires fuel to function or am I stuffing myself to fill a different sort of hunger, one that I'm afraid to face or don't think I deserve?  It's funny how words can come to have such different meanings to people for the strangest of reasons.  

I do get hungry for things, crave and wish to feast, but I've always let people's judgements (perceived in some cases) and my own fear stand in the way. It leads to me being unhappy and me trying to squelch the hungers in the wrong ways.

Over the course of the last couple of years I've been working on understanding these things.  Figuring out who I am and what I want and what I need.  So what hunger do I wish to feed?  I want to feed my dreams.  I want to devour my creative ideas and allow them to manifest as they were meant to.

What is your wish this week?