Once again, I totally forgot about Reverb 10 yesterday. I'm not going to beat myself up about it as I think that defeats the purpose of the whole exercise, but where is my memory going?
December 5th: Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why? (Author: Alice Bradley)
I've been on an continuing journey to let go of all the baggage I've been carrying around for thirty-some years, so afraid to stop protecting my mother from the emotional pain she inflicted on me and the ways I shut down because of it. It's been painful, enlightening, and I'm not sure I've ever cried so much in my life. I'm still a long way from completely free, but I'm slowly letting go of the anger and disappointment with her, myself, and my life and focus on the present. The now.
December 6th: Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it? (Author: Gretchen Rubin)
I haven't made anything with my hands in a very long time. I want to do it. I want to learn and explore, but I'm so scared because I fear imperfection and I'm such a far cry from that when it comes to making things. Logically, I know it's silly, but it's like a brick wall. I've always limited my creativity to writing because I tend to excel in that area, and even that has been stifled lately.
I need to clear my own issues about perfection and simply do it, without judgment. No one has to see it but me. I need to think of it as an outlet rather than some supposed-to-be masterpiece.