It's been another crazy day. I'm feeling much better health wise. I think my doctor had it right yesterday with the sleep and bed rest. I guess I need to remember to disconnect more often. And get back to watching my nutrition, especially when I don't/can't workout.
Dishes and laundry are done. I'm showered, having used one of my lavender aromatherapy tablets to de-stress/calm down, and now I am ready to enjoy Wishcast Wednesday, even if I'm a bit late.
This week Jamie asks us:
I've slowly been working on getting unstuck in my life. I have felt trapped in many ways - some of my own doing and some just life's little gifts - and it's taken me awhile to realize that I can get out of this rut. That I have the power to do it. Anything I dream is possible. I used to believe that before it was beaten out of me by my mother. But the thing is? I can't remember a day that woman was happy in her life. She wasn't sullen and miserable all the time, but truly happy? I don't think so. Especially after my dad died, she just shut down and made a decision (whether consciously or not) to not care anymore. I think that's the most tragic thing about my mom's death. And sometimes I feel sad and guilty that I wasn't in a mental place to notice such things. I was just fighting to get through days with her and learned at a young age to just shut down. There was no protector or advocate for me when I grew up. It was me against my mom. And she managed really well to stomp dreams out of my head, telling me that I had to grow up and stop living in such a fantasyland.
Now I know that the best thing I can do for myself is not only daydream and plan, even the most outrageous, awesome things, because not only is it possible, but I deserve it.
I wish to soar in my writing and my personal relationships, especially the one I have with myself. I wish to have faith that flying doesn't mean crash-and-burn. I wish to soar without being paralyzed by fear.
What are you wishing for?
I'm going to try to get through as many posts tonight as possible, but in case I don't get to it tonight, to my fellow wishcasters: as you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also with all my heart.